Silvermoon Guardians

I am still struggling with health issues. The eye problem is not getting better. Thus the cocktail of chemo continues.

And for those of you who knew who Cowboy was...he is gone. Sometimes you really don't know someone no matter how much you think you do. While there were many good things about Cowboy, in reality he is a troubled soul. He hid it well and when he could not hide it any longer he left.

I see no reason to skirt the issue, his son agrees. Cowboy was and has been for years a compulsive liar. And a thief. In last 4 years he's stolen $33,000 off his elderly father. He's also been engaging in some activities that are not healthy.

Needless to say all of us who knew and loved him are devastated. There were many, many good qualities about the man. If only he could have looked in the mirror and seen it too. But until he realizes he has true worth as a person his destructive behaviors will continue on and he will keep battling the demons that plague him.

Because this has been such a devastating time, I have not been on to work Hardoc. I hope to pick that back up again soon.

And if you believe in a higher power send your prayers for Cowboy. There's a good soul in there but it's over shadowed by the darkness that engulfs him now.

Ashe

I am sorry to hear that Ashe. If it helps, you still have many friends over here at SMG who miss you.

Brobb

I love you Ashe, and my prayers are with both you and Cowboy.

We miss you, and you will always have a home here in SMG with friends that love you.

*many hugs*
Rain

Ashe.......

*wraps his big arms around you and hugs*

If you see me on just ask and i'll come running. Although with my army of toons even I sometimes forget who I am.

(Fireclaw / Kinseeker / Darksprocket / Jazmine / Deathtwinkle)

Just wanted to let you know I am still hanging in there. Since I wrote last, I have found out even more stuff. So just when the wound starts to scab over it's ripped open anew.

Being betrayed is bad enough. It happens all the time to people. It's just the manner and the depth of which it was done by Cow ass, is not to be believed. My son said "this is the kind of stuff you see on TV. Only we got lucky and lived" (he was referencing the friends and neighbors etc who keep saying "omg...he seemed like such a nice guy...I never in a million years would ever ever guess he would do this. There just was noo sign" and normally you hear people say that about someone who just offed their whole family)

I am blessed I have a lot of people near me who have taken turns spending the night and listening.

But I can see a light waaaaaay down at the end of the tunnel. I just hope like hell it's not a frieght train coming the other direction! *weak grin*

In the meantime thank you for the emails and phone calls. I don't know how to send a PM on these boards. But if anyone needs the email it's cwalkerst@mac.com.

*pulls pally boots up* Maybe it's time to make a warrior and go sheild bash a goat roper lol